Your post really moved me, glasschild. I am 9 days sober and I'm going through those same emotions. Some days will be absolutely wonderful, and the emptiness is in a very tiny corner in the back of my mind. Then hours go by and that emptiness creeps in and gets bigger and bigger and then I get frustrated with myself, confused, and scared. My fiance plays guitar, maybe I should try that next time it happens. Gregory Alan Isakov on acoustic is wonderful, maybe your man could play some for you. Especially the song Amsterdam.