Pams - I'm so glad you found us and decided to tell your story. It meant the world to me to have someone to talk it over with. I was like you - no one I could really confide in who would understand and not judge.
I found myself drinking 'round the clock in the end. It had started out as something fun and relaxing many years ago. Over time I became dependent on it - never realized it was becoming a necessity. I was so thankful I found the courage to get free of it. You can do this.