Oh look, there is a quick reply box! This is great. Thank all of YOU for replying so quickly. Now I am in tears because suddenly there are these people that say nice things and do seem to care and want to know what the heck is going on with me. I feel shame and guilt and cant think of one person in my real life I could go to to talk about this. There probably are people I could go to, but what I mean is, I don't think there is anyone that I trust enough to actually say what I just typed, out loud.
There are so many reasons why I think I have a real issue to deal with. And I probably do need to talk those out at some point. One step at a time right?