glasschild, it will get soooooo much better! The first few weeks were the worst for me by far.
Think of the happy future you want with your fiancé. That is forever. The current veil of gloom will pass.
I don't know what else you're doing to support your sobriety, but for me regular exercise and healthy eating are key to keeping my spirits up. Tomorrow should be a nice day - maybe try going out for a long walk or a bike ride?
And I know you can do this -- if you made it through this Michigan winter with your sanity intact, you can do anything!
