Originally Posted by
NJNikki 
I can relate to many elements of your story. Scraping bowls and making phone calls is not going to change the ending. Why don't you set a quit date and make a plan? It really can be done, we promise. Keep reading the stories of others and you will find that you are not alone. Best wishes.
The quit date sounds like a good plan...I have quit smoking ciggs twice before and have to again after starting when all the stuff started with my last ex and her dying and all.
So I know the preparation can and does work.
Honestly (and when the tears well up folks you know it is deep $#1&) I am scared of stopping because it is attached to everything now.
Thank you for the thoughts and the taking the time to reply.
