Totally lost - depressed
New to the forum. I've drank one beer in the past 98 days and it tasted like crap which is the good news, the bad news is I'm totally depressed. I feel agitated, hopeless, tired, unmotivated, you name the negative feeling and I'm having it. I'm 44 and I drank actively (3-5 times week) since I was 18. Probably got blitzed at least twice a week. I spent the past 26 years getting drunk then recovering to only get drunk again which is totally depressing to me to finally realize. I have no craving for beer or alcohol anymore but I find myself wanting to drink just to make the depression go away. Is this normal and will this dark cloud go away?