Thank you so much for the replies and the support. It's funny how I tell myself that this is not really a problem or a big deal and I can quit if I want. And then I get on here and somehow I am finally able to process some emotion. I am completely humbled by the support. Thank you.
P.S. Does anyone go to meetings? I thought it might be helpful to go to a meeting on my usual "drinking night." But I feel a little lost about it. I know if I have to call AA to ask questions I'll never do it. So this seemed like a good place to ask. Do I need to go to an "open meeting"? Does it need to be a "beginners" meeting? Right now I'm really focused on a local meeting during my "drinking time", but I also don't want to walk in and embarrass myself by going to the wrong one. Thanks again you guys!