One of the many things I learned about myself is when I am bored or have too much time on my hands I would think of AH and the thought of what is he doing would often play over and over in my head.
I forced myself to stay busy. I did things that were completely out of my comfort zone.
I use to hate running not an exercise person I have asthma . I would force myself to run even if it was barely moving. now I love it and can't imagine not running in my life.
I hate reading so I forced myself to buy books and read and research. I learned allot about the dead sea and salt
I'm allergic to cats so I volunteer at the animal shelter helping the doggies
My point is when I have down time is when the loneliness would creep back in.
If you keep going backwards that is where you will always stay.