Haha, yes this is a pre-existing condition! I like the way you rant
And I am sure it helped you to see that in black and white. No one can tell you what to do but if you keep writing your thoughts down like this you'll soon figure it out. And I hear you on the 'refuses to comply' thing... sometimes I doubt my own existence I am not 'heard' that often.
Massive congratulations on 5 days sober anyway
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