yes I was the only one trying to make him see that his drinking was damaging our family and was a problem. I became the "killjoy" among all the people we associated with. all our camping friends and such, I became the b#*ch that wouldn't let him have any fun.
He watched me raise my kids and always told people what an amazing mother I was ..my kids were always first. Now im this evil lousy selfish person who leaches off him and that is so far from the person I am it makes me sick. I was always so proud of the fact that he was proud of me. that says a lot doesn't it...