Call your sponsor asap.
tell them all those thoughts going on, the relapse has already happened in your mind.
Your trigger was the pain. The pain triggered those thoughts in your head. Next you may act out on those thoughts.
The relapse happens long before we pick up.
You have to squash them thoughts, that is when we have to stop the momentum of the relapse.
We always have an opportunity to stop that relapse at thoughts and usually days earlier . We never just pick up.
trigger, thoughts, obsession, pick up.
Stop at thoughts.