Hammer, if you were in my meeting I would be cross talking and cutting up.
I've been thinking why I stay.
1. Fear of failure. Coming to grips with spirituality/sin of divorce.
2. Fear I still love him though this feeling is transient (damn my heart)
3. Realization I'd just pick another emotionally mucked up partner (devil u know)
4. Family unit - lack of family in area to help/support so single mom is SOLO
5. Comfort in routine - divide of work/cost of living by a dedicated partner
6. Fear of being alone - though I feel this way in relationship
7. This man is my best friend and in some ways he does know me better than anyone
8. Fear of making a final decision
9. Fear of abandonment - mine and his
10. I promised time - I've made it to Step 4 in 11 mo so I try to focus on me and not RAH