I want to drink
I'm a little over a month into sobriety and thought I was past this, but this is the 3rd day in a row I want to drink. What's worse - I don't just want to drink - I want to get drunk. There's a bottle of vodka in the freezer that isn't mine to throw out, and it seems like not a really big deal to just go for it. I feel really weak right now, and this is the first time I don't know if I'll ride this one out successfully.
I don't really know what to do right now, so I'm going to try to just remember all the reasons I quit in the first place, how sick and tired I felt before I quit, how much work I've put into this and how I'm just now starting to sleep after a month of insomnia from quitting.
Wow this is tough - I guess this is when my real commitment to sobriety is going to need to shine.