Hi and welcome Ben
I think support can really help keep you on track...and it's hard to argue you're not that bad when the evidence is here written down.
I think making changes to your life is important too. If your life is anything like mine it was pretty booze sodden.
If you want to stay sober long term you'll likely have some tough decisions coming on what you do in your free time, who you hang with and where.
but...you're not alone in this here. This is a great bunch of people.
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