Dear Benji90,
Glad you came across this site, it helps tones...
You will learn from instance that you think you are relaxing,
but in reality that is the short lane and after it creates more anxiety
you will be even worse,
so you will have to do more, and the circle never ends...
you are learning in a hard way that is not what you want in life, reading your stories!
First Step taken... you know the problem!
Now do something about it before is too late!!!
Stopping drinking is hard but you have to start thinking
how you are going to change your life to stay sober!!!
My advice get out before is too late you are still young, got many good experiences ahead of you do not waste it passing life drunk, join AA, or come here and learn all you can, change your life patters, places, etc...
We tend to obsess with drinks/drugs and do not focus on the other things around us.
Got to focus on positive and proactive stuff...
Hope you keep going!!!
Best wishes in your recovery
