Kinda what like the captain said. I always knew I was alcoholic. My wife has been telling me for a few years now. I finally called myself an alcoholic when I spoke at my first meeting. The first few times it was anguish to say it. Now I say it with pride.
Knowing it and accepting it are two different things. I knew all along. But I finally accepted it. That's when I started calling MYSELF an alcoholic.
Bonesofhope, perhaps it's time to change your name to 'bonesofacceptance.' Maybe?