Thanks for the welcome.
I just can't get the obsessive thoughts out of my mind about how I wanna walk down the street to the liquor store right now and grab a bottle, I have stomach and intestinal pains and I know if I just drink a little they will go away. I know how weak and selfish that sounds though at the same time.
I've been up all night so maybe I should just try to go to sleep and when I wake up the liquor stores will be closed.