Reaching Out
I've been sober since Feb 6, 2014, but this past week I have been having really bad urges to drink. I've been using the SMART program and it has helped me stay sober, but for some reason these urges are hitting me so hard. Sometimes I even feel bitter that I can't drink. Well, I CAN drink but the consequences aren't worth it. I just want to relax! I want an escape. It's a constant battle in my head lately, but I really just want to get through it. Aside from the potential consequences, I'm afraid that if I drink it'll just prolong these urges. The longest I have been sober is 5 months and during that whole time I had urges like this until I thought (stupidly) that if I drank it'd stop. Someone please just tell me this is normal and I'll get through it... this is me reaching out.