Oh, I am so sorry for where you are right now. Reading it brought me right back to all those mornings of "what have I done?" horror. Be sure to keep this feeling close in your mind so that you can go back to it when you're a few days, weeks, month down the road and start thinking things "weren't that bad". My experience is that I would "get away with it" too many times, and that would only help me minimize the problem when I wanted to drink again.
You can do this. I did the same thing over and over for many years and I have over four months now. I never thought it was possible, but it is, and it is so much better.
Good luck and keep posting, looking forward to hearing more from you!