Originally Posted by
chutch 
god grant me the serenity
had to wonder around the site get to know how to navigate post a few ..think i said somthin wrong in my first one cus its locked ..to the powers that be ,save it for me ,,some time went into it and kept my mind on it and not were my lil dude is bangin his head away ,,ill fix it when you give me the chance .. reading and browsing has givin a ray of hope to my not so uneak situation ..i have no choice this has to be THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE..cus i have missed a lot ..lost it all ..for the most part..to any one else who reads this .. know that this is a scary time for me because i don't know how to function sober . or hung over was what work was ..stop work and it was MOMENTS to the first seconds more for the second ect ect...so i am going to just take all this one moment ..one second..one hr. and one day at a time ..hopefully in a a year i can say two days at a time but for now it one breath ..hell i don't even know how to sleep ..cus didn't get tired just fell out till the alarm woke me for the next day o haze.i already know i will not miss the the first10 sec of wakin up ..a prayer goes out to all that are startin this and my deepest respects to those who have time in ..id like to stay around for awile good nite all i go to pace for a bit while my good friend who is my shadow sleeps with one eye open to help me through this.till i go check in for a bit not lookin forward to it but gotta do it