Hello Tranklin! I'm so glad you found us - you're right, you're never alone & we all understand. That meant so much to me when I first joined here, since no one in my life had a clue what I was going through.
I drank for many years too - and those first few months were a strange trip. I was thrilled to be sober (and alive!) but there was an adjustment. I was a fish out of water, an alien - but it all changed as I got used to living in a different way. You'll go through many phases as you heal. You've done a great thing for yourself - congratulations.