Ok, I am over it. No more pity party for me! I will not go through life being bitter or angry. I refuse to feel cheated. I have already lost so much and refuse to lose any more feeling this way. Seriously, where has my faith in God been? I know HE has this, I know I will be ok, better then ok. I already am. I have been blessed with so much the past month. Awesome friends, tremendous support, and all my needs have been met. What more can I ask for?
I wouldn't trade places with him for a second. Nothing could make me go to back with an addict, recovering or not. I still love him very much but I will love him from a distance.....a far, safe distance. This time around, I will love myself more!! I will pray for his soul because I know it is lost. And I will pray he has not sold it too. I hope and pray he can find lasting recovery but I have my own journey to begin. I am exactly where I am suppose to be and look forward to a new happier chapter. This one needs to be closed.
