Originally Posted by
Arbor8 
I guess I'm still struggling internally with the life long commitment of sobriety and if its right for me.
Hi Arbor
I think something to consider is that for many of us that commitment gets a lot easier and then even enjoyable over time.
I know some are wary of thinking too much about the rest of life, but I found that I needed to face up to that. To begin with my acceptance was reluctant; I didn't want to do it but I knew I needed to do it. But as the months past I got more and more comfortable with it, and I can honestly say I love the idea of looking forward to life-long sobriety now.
Maybe put the question of life-long sobriety on hold; or perhaps just note your feelings on it over time and see whether your response to the thought of it changes.
Well done on promising to yourself that you wouldn't drink today.