Hi ForestRunner,
I did not want to quit drinking when I quit drinking. In fact, I didn't know my last drink was my last drink.
Even after five weeks of hospital and rehab, I didn't really want to quit drinking. But by this time I had five weeks of sobriety and I also didn't want to give that up. I did the one day at a time thing for a long, long time. It took months before my mind shifted from 'I am not drinking' to 'I don't drink'.
I really believe that my mind and body needed all that time to recover from the years of alcohol abuse.
It sucks and it is hard, but it really does get better.
It really does.
It takes time, but it gets better.
