I am truly sorry you lost your friend!!! I know you know he has gone HOME. The last friend I lost made me really angry with myself, I was sad that he was gone and the hole in my heart seemed it would never close. then after much thought I realized this was probably the most selfish time in my life, He had gone on to a place of no pain, a place of perpetual joy, and me...I wanted him back here on earth, where he was suffering terribly. I reach out my heart to you Faith. I hope you can turn your sadness into joy realizing that your friend is at the right hand of the Father, just like he promised. REJOICE!! For he has gone home and we will all be there together one day. I will send prayers of peace for your heart. GIANT HUGS!