I did that, too, more times than I would want to remember... Worst of all, I've loved my job all along. Yet kept escaping reality into a liquid alternate dimension until it had become seriously successful... I also agree it's pathetic how we destroy the very things that matter most to us with addiction.
But at some point I started missing the real world again, desperately. I guess that's when many of us come here wanting to get sober.
I believe now that there is a way out of this. Only have ~2 months at the moment, but I'm sensing more and more connection with the world out there every day.
We can do this!
