I would like to say three things.
Firstly, thanks everyone for listening because believe me it does help for me to talk here.
Secondly, I have never taken Valium while drinking. I have only ever taken it when having a bad withdrawal, and then only when I start getting withdrawal symptoms. quite a few hours later.
Thirdly, and I honestly do not mean to offend anyone, I have said that AA is not for me. I would not go to a meeting even if there was one in the next street and I will not talk to anyone from AA either face to face or on the phone. My choice, my decision.
I have already been driven away from one alcohol self-help group by someone insisting that I must go to AA meetings, totally ignoring the fact that I had stated point blank that AA is not for me.
Please friends, do not drive me away from SR by keeping on ramming AA down my throat. It really isn't helping me.
Thanks.