Welcome.
Just keep reading. Read here, read books, post all you want.
We are here and always glad to listen and share.
The amazing part of this forum for me was finding so many who have been exactly where I was.
When you think there is no way to explain what you are going through or feeling, you will find that here you hardly have to explain it at all.
Everyone here already KNOWS.
So you can share your stories and know we will not be shocked or confused or judge. We will most likely say "yes, that was how it was for me too."