I feel like I am doing something wrong
Well, I am going to as many AA meetings as I possibly can, reading the Big Book, looking for a sponsor (I do have an on line sponsor but am looking for an in person one too). I feel like I am doing the right things and yet I still think about drinking. What am I doing wrong? Why is it some people say they go to AA and the desire to drink is immediately lifted? Is this actually true? Why hasn't that happened to me? I still have the desire to drink.
I am trying to cultivate some sort of relationship with a higher power although that is difficult for me as well as many others.
I am worried I am going to be one of those people who must not be capable of sobriety. I am ok for now but at some point I really want the desire to go away.