Hey Toby,
Thanks for sharing this. I've been thinking about a lot of the same issues you mention and all I can say that if I knew the answers I'd write a book on them and be a millionaire
Instead I go from thinking I'm alright to thinking that no one wants me to there is nothing wrong with me to wondering what is wrong with me since I got no friends or lovers. And desparately long for both.
So you are not the only one with these questions. Hope that helps.
Chess
another walking contradiction