Aarryckha,
There are so many reasons for Today's quit. The same as always. Guilt over everything. Can't focus at work, lose days of productivity at home, afraid of the damage to my organs and the list goes on. I am grateful it was a wine binge because it is not as bad as a scotch recovery. It is sad I can differentiate them. So tired of being tired of it.
I am grateful for the posts of support I see on this site. And when I am stronger, I hope to be as encouraging to newcomers as well. Thank you.