FT, wow. I shocked. That was total unexpected. Total unpredictable -NOT! Be careful, my dear, or you can wastes 20 year of you life being 'disgusted' with self, but meanwhile nothing changing.
TigerL, easiest to answer this question by saying my brain/heart/nevous system total f*ck up from catastrophic meth OD and throw on top 30+ year of alcoholism. So any 'subustance' affect me in enhance and crazy ways. Caffeine/sugar make me manic and also dump my blood sugars (I hypoglycemic). It very much affect my energies, sleeping and mood. Almost always, it will put my self in crazy brain state and once I go crazy brain, is almost for sure I gonna drink. So, is bad anyways, but is also unacceptable for me, cuz it playing with fire, you see?