Originally Posted by unchartedxo

this is what I have to keep telling myself too. I don't always drank. in fact, I rarely drink! But when I drink, I drink a lot..... I don't have that off switch. So many times when I was sober I would reminisce and daydream about Sunday afternoon day drinking. Have wine with lunch after church on my friend back porch, beer at the bar while watching the football game... but also, how many times have I been bombed drunk by 7pm and act like a fool in front of my child at bedtime? Or wake up to a busy Monday morning sick as a dog? How quickly I tend to forget to play the whole tape out in my head... I watch the good parts of drinking, not the conflict...