I'm not in AA but for me it means that once i start drinking all bets are off the table as to what will happen .
sometimes i might be lucky and just have the one . Even then though, it seems to end up a day or two later , a week or two later , a month or two later , with me blackout drunk and out of control , making poor choices and feeling frustrated with everything that gets in the way of me and my drinking .
Bestwishes, m