Hi there
Welcome. Put yourself first and be careful with social situations!!!
I feel badly right now because I just canceled going to a dinner party with my husband but I KNOW everyone is going to guzzle fine wine and then there's me drinking cola. I'm not ready for that. We are eating at home and going to a movie. I feel bad not seeing my friends but I know they will want me to drink and have fun - not b/c they are bad people but they don't understand.
Just be strong for yourself which is hard sometime!