gracette, welcome!
Don't worry about lengthy posts, pour it out, we are all here to listen.
"this is all in your head, you're overreacting, seeking attention."
The above from your post is the AV (addictive voice) and it speaks to all of us in the same manner no matter how bad it is. It makes everything minimal in order to validate that we should drink.
As far as people telling you that you don't have a problem I heard the same from a few people. People who didn't really see me when things were bad. We reserve our worst for people who are like us because we know that there won't be judgement. Family members who we almost know won't walk away.
You've come to the right place. There's a tremendous amount of support here.
Read, read, read, and post, post, post!