+1 to what Dee said.
My son was my major motivation. Other than that I saw how my drinking and my behavior were effecting my mom and dad. They were nervous wrecks. I was completely destroying everyone around me and didn't really care. Don't know what made me realize it but after 15 years of drinking I found it in myself to stop making everyone's life a living hell. AA never worked for me but I do say give it a try as it might be just what you need. Pray for ya.