Thank you very much for being here....
Today I cried for 2 hours.
I don't want to get divorced.
I don't understand why he doesn't miss me
Why isn't he afraid or sad about our relationship and family?
Why?
I still take SSRI but I'm sad like never in my life before.
I have suicidal thoughts
I wouldn't do anything but I don' t want to feel this horrible pain anymore.
And my husband?
He is happy without me.
He doesn't care about me....
Why do I love a man who has treaten me so badly???
There is something wrong with me and my feelings about my own value......
It's not normal to love someone who behaved like my x did or?
I know I must go to the lawyer and go for divorce.
The state now where I don't know how it goes on....drives me crazy.
The words of my x "i want to give you a last chance"
Or" maybe we will come together again.maybe in a half of a year"
"I want a new better woman"
He is playing games with my heart and I can't live that way one more day.
I will go to a lawyer and tell her all this and that it's not appropriate any longer to wait, hope he will get like former days, wait, hope.....i can't live that way longer....