I'm still toying with that idea as well. "Im so young, Im suppose to slip up and get too drunk sometimes." These are the lies that go in and out of my head. Im 23 and I had to totally change the way I look at alcohol. For some people its not a big deal. They can stop whenever. For me it is a different situation. I cant stop. I tried but I cant. Try talking to therapist and go from there. You don't want this to turn in something worst.