This is sort of a confusing thought for me. I wanted anything that would get me high from a very early age. It was weirdly enough just the way I was right out of the gate, as early as the age of 8? I found out about things that could stimulate me through older friends and began a lifelong quest to use them. Does this constitute the desire to use as the problem or was a deep rooted desire to escape life the problem? I'm not really sure, I just know all those early year experiments led to me the dependence I came to have at an older age. When I began taking steps to quit, there were no underlying issues. I was just addicted physically and most of all mentally. Alcohol had just become a really bad habit that I was now addicted to and I just needed to focus long enough to get passed the cravings.