Well, the blood pressure just goes to a bad level, and I have terrible vertigo.
This addiction really insists you stay unless you want to go through hell.
I could go on but there are ten other pressing concern's right now.
Am trying to taper......Hasn't worked but I am sure the day will come where it works.
With me it takes the right set of circumstances to give it up.
I get really ill when I quit, and cant stand that.
And once I get through that I'm over hyper, you see I have gone through it before.
I'm finding every reason not to quit right? Really it's the withdrawal and the responsibilities I face.
I'm getting crushed by stress and obligations and really if I don't quit right now I am going to forgive myself for that cause it's too much to bear right now.
I know it doesn't make any sense to those that have quit.
But that's where I'm at. Id really like to think its just an easy thing to do.
Name the problem I have it........It sucks, so the only escape I have is a few too many beers all the time.
I guess it's a major depression, but after living in such a way for years. I just don't know anymore.
Pour me pour me pour me another drink...exactly where I'm at and I'm ashamed of that, I fear this addiction is about to kill me.