Forgive
My husband has decided to try. Off to counseling and he has actually caught himself mid-sentence at times so that he's not blaming me for everything anymore. But... I am so very down.
I tried to leave in January- had an apartment, clothes packed, a very, very part-time job.
I stayed. I could not handle leaving because I still believe my children are better off with us together.
It is better. I will say that he seems to be trying more and getting help but it is very difficult when you're with someone because of children and nothing else. I just really wish I didn't feel so empty. Nice 'thought' to move along, get on with life, yada, yada... but I won't.
I'd rather die married to him than feel like I'm killing my children by leaving. Not a very happy post - sorry.
Just looking for some coping and hope from anyone saying that things can somehow be better. :|