First "using thoughts" in awhile
So I'm on my overnight pass right now and I don't have to go back to rehab til 8 PM tomorrow. I've been having a few more using thoughts today than I have for the past few weeks, although it is expected. It's not like "oh my god, I need to use right now" it's more thoughts about how I could use more easily now if I wanted to. Memories of leaving this apartment and going to use. They scare me. I'm also pretty bored and restless so I guess that doesn't really help. So I'm just putting that out there because pain shared is pain lessened.