Fortunately...
Fortunately for me, despite my suffering the delusions of alcoholism, at the 'tipping point' when I was so debilitated by alcohol I feared I wouldn't see the sunrise the next day. The god of my understanding, for no other human being was present, I had a 'psychic or spiritual' experience...something I've had to accept.
There being no other explanation forthcoming...
See, 'The Doctors Opinion'. 'Alcoholics Anonymous' 4th Ed. regarding this phenomena...it was nothing to do with me.