Thanks everyone - I really appreciate your comments.
I was volunteering at a detox center, making dinners, cleaning up, filing, laundry etc. I was doing this about 8 hours a week until one of the staff members treated me poorly in front of everyone (she had quite an attitude with many people there). Then she did it again when I was feeling really down… but I continued on, did my work etc.. I left there in tears and relapsed the next day.
I've been trying to find another place to give my time to…
Its amazing what can trigger feelings that lead you to the place where you'd rather get drunk to ease the pain.
I know I can do this, I've just got to find some stable ground again…
Thank you all.
Shay