Hi Alpha,
I don’t think I remember one lucid thing during my eleven year marriage to my alcoholic husband. Perhaps this is a blessing in disguise.
When I let my mind wander back in time to the awful that was, I find I get so sad and remorseful, which leads to all forms of self-pity. My slippery slope.
However, in the past few years, I have attended almost all of my nephews high school football games, gone to every giant super-extended family function, enjoyed holidays with my close family and have found great joy in the smallest of things.
The guilt of the past is fading with time and my life is now filling with wonderful memories.
