shay17

Hello there,

I've been trying to get sober on and off for a few years now.

I work as a wine sales specialist and have avoided many possible disasters by staying sober at work related events & functions. I've been trying to get out of this business for obvious reasons but I find the times I relapse the most is always when I'm out with friends or at a social functions. I can't avoid those circumstances all the time, I just feel my will gets weak and I just cave in for…one beer?

I feel more excited, more alive when enjoying that first beer - and if I could only stop at that, well, then I wouldn't be a binge drinker eh?

Weds night my friends took me to a music concert for my birthday. I'm turning 41. Ive been feeling some anxiety about getting older and after watching my friends have a good time while I was stuck in my head, I caved in and drank..a beer, then another then another, then a shot, then one more beer. I did not drive and stayed on my friends couch but woke up with the worst hangover. I can't tell you why I made that snap decision, but somehow I feel I'm missing out on the fun if I'm sober 24/7? Also, I only drank one glass of wine yesterday to calm my nerves and then a green smoothie and sleep - was determined not to turn that night into a 3 or 4 day binge (which happens when I'm severely hungover sometimes).

I had almost 4 months sober and then messed it up then have relapsed twice since then. Haven't gone past 2 weeks since the first relapse. AA is not for me, and this forum certainly helps but can anyone share your secrets & tips to getting back some good sober time under your belt and feeling strong in social situations?

Anyone into meditation, anything you can share I certainly appreciate!!

Shay x