Welcome hedes
I can relate to a lot of your post. Although I'm not a schizophrenic and pot didn't make me 'delusional' as such, it definitely triggered a rather intense interest in consciousness, spirituality, the interconnected nature of all things, Buddha, Hinduism etc etc. Now that's not necessarily a bad thing, but those who are prone to deep thinking and philosophising are probably better off without pot as it can definitely makes us less grounded in reality and less focused on our goals in life. By all means stay curious. Life is a weird and wonderful miracle after all, but for now, seeing as you're still young, focus on what you need to do to achieve what you want to achieve. You seem a really articulate and intelligent young man and I hope you find the support your looking for on this site.
I'm rooting for ya!