TS,
You will get the hang of it!
You learn how to deal with the waves...
It is not easy but Is possible to do it!
Need to learn the best way to deal for the urges...
Avoid places and situations that will triger you.
Change companies IMPORTANT.
Do changes in your life...
Pick up new hobbies...
I find Sport is the best to get through it...
come here every time you need support!
learn from the posts...
Get help if you can in NA or AVRT other place.
And lots of Support and love from your closed ones...
Etc. etc. etc.
Many of us have tried and failed many times.
But you get up and continue!!!
You are used to live leaning on drugs,
learn to live without crutches!
Best wishes in your recovery!!!