@GEAH - It really is! I'm actually liking and understanding the separation of the AV, treating it as someone else instead of me. The drunk me was definitely not me. The behavior was not me. Me mixed with alcohol really does make me a different person, and that "person" will not be given the right to ruin my true self.
I won't be attending that **** show anymore AV (you little F*er!, thanks @forabetterlife)!